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What My Brother Knew

A Memoir

Published by She Writes Press
Distributed by Simon & Schuster
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About The Book

For readers who were inspired by Alua Arthur’s Briefly Perfectly Human, an emotional, eye-opening account of one woman’s journey from loss and abuse to healing and spiritual awakening.

As a boy, Jay Amelong predicted the accident that caused his death, down to the color of the car that hit him. “I will die young, while riding my bike,” he told friends and family repeatedly. “It won’t be much longer, I want you to be prepared.” These were baffling words to hear from the mouth of a content thirteen-year-old—but when Kristina Amelong was only seventeen, her brother’s tragic death unfolded exactly as he said it would, radically changing her life.

Propelled down a self-destructive path of drug addiction and reckless sex, Kristina spent much of her young adult years wanting to die. Once or twice she came close. Always, Jay’s bizarre story and his inexplicable acceptance of his own death lived in her body.

More than thirty years after losing Jay, Kristina embarks on a journey of discovery, seeking truth about herself, her brother, and the universe. The result of her investigation is a memoir that defies belief. Charting a life path from loss and abuse to healing and spiritual awakening, What My Brother Knew demonstrates the transformative power of facing the mystery of death head-on and our incredible ability, as humans, to do just that.

About The Author

Kristina Amelong is the founder and owner of Optimal Health Network, a holistic health business. She is also the author of the self-published book Ten Days to Optimal Health: A Guide to Nutritional Therapy and Colon Cleansing, and a senior board member for the Center for World Philosophy and Religion, a nonprofit organization dedicated to a reweaving of the human story that will guide humanity through the current evolutionary crisis. She has a passion for photography, gardening, and pickleball. Kristina resides in Madison, Wisconsin, with her three dogs and a brood of chickens.

Product Details

  • Publisher: She Writes Press (May 27, 2025)
  • Length: 256 pages
  • ISBN13: 9781647429089

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Raves and Reviews

"Amelong writes from the heart and has a gift for arresting imagery...A sincere and valiant attempt to understand the unfathomable."Kirkus Reviews

“This is a searing memoir about a sister’s love for a younger brother who was brutally struck on a BMX bicycle by a green car that drug him to his death. Jay repeatedly described the event beforehand, likely because of an LSD opening, even asked that “Stairway to Heaven” be played at his funeral. The story explored in these pages made me weep. We are totally messed up . . . and we are perfect.”—Jeffrey J. Kripal, author of How to Think Impossibly: About Souls, UFOs, Time, Belief, and Everything Else

“Amelong courageously enters outrageous pain and outrageous love, crafting a story that moves beyond the personal to resonate with the universal. Through her brother’s extraordinary foresight, she reveals a single, shimmering thread of the larger tapestry—a story within the Story of the continuity of consciousness itself. With radical candor and profound intimacy, Kristina illuminates the contours of life’s beauty and shadow, inviting readers into a communion that transcends individual narrative . . . . a testament to human resilience and the ever-evolving nature of love in a universe alive with purpose.”—Dr. Marc Gafni, author of A Return to Eros

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